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I’m a bit of a late adopter when it comes to new toys, mainly due to insufficient fundage when they first come onto the market.  The latest toy that I have been drooling over is the Nintendo Wii.  Mainly this has been from the fact that it looks like it would be a lot of fun.

I finally got to try one out.  And Oh Mii God! It’s too much fun.  It’s now 11:30pm and I’m sitting in a sweaty heap after only about 20 minutes of Wii Sports.  I tried them all, with the exception of boxing as the friend I borrowed the Wii from forgot to pack his nunchuck.

I thought it looked like it would be fun before trying it.  I can’t believe how instantly addictive and fun it really was.  And how easy, both to set up and to use.  The interface was easy to undestand and the in game instructions made everything quick to pick up as well.  I can’t wait till I have some time to play it with Kira, I think that will be even better then playing solo.

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So a lot has happened since last i blogged.  We moved to Brisbane at the start of August and I’m now back to the 100km commute to get to work.  Thankfully this time it’s almost all highway driving and I have company in the car most of the time too.

When we were looking for a house we found the one that we are in with the owner looking for “a family that wants to stay for a long term in the house”.  That was exactly what we were looking to do.  We wanted a place we could set up base in for at least a few years so that we could save some money, with a view to buying the next place we live in.

Unfortunately that doesnt look like it’s going to be the case.  The recent market/financial troubles have caused the owner to re-evaluate their position and they have decided that they are reluctantly going to sell this house.  We figure that this is the house they have chosen out of their portfolio as it has just finished being refurbished/renovated and they feel that they have the best chance of return on it.

This makes things particularly frustrating for us as we have to put up with the realestate bringing potential buyers through to see the house.  So far we’ve had a small group of potential buyers come thorugh last saturday, and we have another coming through thursday afternoon.

This is the first time that something like this has happened to us during our entire renting history and it has come at, what can only be described as, the worst possible time.  We can’t really afford another move at the end of our lease and with Stacey currently trying to nurse a fractured ankle it leaves most of the work to me.  I’m barely coping with everything that is going on at the moment and this added stress is not something that either of us are enjoying.

We’ve even half heartedly started looking towards buying a place of our own, but with our current lack of savings (yeah moving up here was expensive) we dont feel that we are in a position financially to do that.

and if that isn’t the understatement of the day I don’t know what is.

I’ve been in a bit of a dark spot for a while with a lack of motivation for many things and lots has happened since my last post. The bubba that I was marvelling about feeling in my last post is now 9 months old!! Imogen is almost walking younger then her older sister was even crawling. It has been very special being responsible for another little life in this world. But it has also been exceptionally challenging dealing with the changes to our little family.

I know that I could be coping better, and that I still have a long way to go until I am happy with myself and how I am interacting with everyone around me. I lack patience and am quick to anger at the moment. I’m sure it’s due to lack of sleep and I should attempt to address that, but I need my own time and most of the time the only way i can get it is to stay up after everyone else is in bed. I need to find an outlet as none of my traditional ones seem to work any more. But enough of that darkness….

Work has gotten challenging again recently with my changed responsiblities. I’m still trying to wrap my head around everything that is involved in my new responsibilities and I am sure that as the challenges unfold I will have many things to say about what is happening.

Any way, thats enough of an “I’m still alive” post for now. Hopefully it wont be a year before the next one that I put out.

I still haven’t heard the heart beat…. damn my leaving for work before the end of the appointment… but tonight I got to feel the first movement :)

I’ve just read an interesting article on schooling that I came across on reddit.com by John Taylor Gatto. Obviously with Kira continually getting closer to school age (a couple of years yet thankfully) we are already thinking about schools and schooling. We’ve made a few decisions already that I believe we are both happy with.

If I were wavering at all on any of those decisions the article I’ve just read would have made my mind up for me. I can honestly say that in the last few years I’ve seen evidence of the points John makes in my generation and in post-school people that are younger than I am. It was this evidence that led us to the decisions that we have made.

Why is it that bedtime has to be such a battle at the moment. I understand that our darling daughter is teething at the moment, but it has never been this bad. She won’t feed to sleep easily and if I try to pick her up and rock/carry/walk her she screams like I’m cutting her fingers and toes off one at a time.

I feel so frustrated, and I’m sure that she does too, that we can’t communicate more effectively than we currently do. Kira has what I consider a wide vocabulary. I’m not suggesting that she is uber smart or anything, just that we can communicate quite well most of the time. Why is it then that when I pick her up to try to get her to sleep the only form of communication she seems to posses is thrashing around like a dieing fish and screaming at the top of her lungs.

It becomes quite a violent struggle on her part some nights and I wonder if what I am doing does more harm than good. She is tired, she’s had a long day and now she wont go to sleep.

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